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Greetings from a small, Viv-shaped Prozac nation!
My six months without antidepressants have been fairly hellish, so I finally surrendered and went to see my almost-hot psychiatrist who recommended a trial of Prozac. Cue much grinding of teeth and general nervousness. 'Me? On Prozac? Sounds so 'Girl Interrupted'! Why can't my brain do it itself goddamnit?! Why can't I just RELAXXX??!!' etc etc. Although pills aren't for everyone, there's no doubt that medication has provided a lifeline for millions of people around the world (myself included), and sometimes you've got to come to terms with needing a little help. See this article for a really clear-headed and inspiring take on an often maligned and misjudged thing.
I've been taking them for a week now, and...guess what?! They've made everything much, much worse! You've got to laugh - it is quite funny. Apparently they can do that (i.e. make you feel like you want to jump out of your skin for the first couple of weeks) before they make you better. If they make you better.
I'm so bloody anxious, I could gnaw off my arm. I've been teetering on panic a number of times a day, and just feel jittery and speedy. I had two days of really bad nausea, which has now improved to simply not fancying eating anything apart from beige food. With cheese on top.
I'm persevering, because apparently I could exit the tunnel into bright daylight any day now. Please hurry up that day!
I have to remember that:
1. This will pass.
2. Sometimes the darkest night is just before the dawn.
3. Whatever happens, I can and will cope.
4. This will pass (again).
It's been a long old time in the tunnel, and I really just want to feel a bit better soon.
Whilst I'm waiting, I am consuming approximate 1kg of Rich Tea biscuits daily, laughing at the brilliant Twenty-Twelve spoof documentary, having loads of hugs, trudging into work in the snow, and crying into my decaf tea.
See? There are always bits of sunshine, even when things are shitty.
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5 comments:
You are so funny. Love the way you can make jokes about anxiety and panic.Great jokes too.Thanks for replying to my last comment.It really did make me feel better that you shared that you cried every morning when you were starting your job.Work is getting better.Thank fuck.Hope the prozac kicks in with some happy juice for you soon. Love and light.xx
hi there
I don't have much experience of meds and things have probably moved on since but I do remember being told that can happen, feeling worse before you feel better. I reckon give it another week and start asking questions if no change. Btw how come you didn't want to just take what you had before?
Interested to know how you get on with Prozac, apparently one of the easiest to come off and may help with my SAD so maybe I could take it 3 months a year. Sadly I've lost the will to do anything at all this winter. Might try it next winter, let us know what you think of it and good luck, I hope it works for you.
big hugs
Scarlett
PS here is a cute pic that I reckon is right up your street
http://twitpic.com/by4mhf
Oh yes meds have the tendency do that! But yes it does pass, and I'm hoping it passes very soon for you! Thanks for the link to that article, it was interesting to read. I do have to be very thankful to my medication!
Thanks so much, Sheryn - glad things are looking up for you! xx
Big hugs to you too, Scarlett, and thanks for the cockle-warming pic! I'll let you know how it goes - I can be a guinea-big for you! xx
Thanks, Sandra - really pleased the article was useful and resolve-strengthening for you, and thanks so much for the happy fuzzy wishes my way! Things are improving already, so everything looking a bit rosier :) xx
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